I will say that! Mark is fine fine fine! He doesn't understand why Matthew's home and on the couch and not playing with him, but he's fine. I will say PRAISE THE HOLY LORD ON HIGH that Mark and Micah aren't showing symptoms of either of these. Seriously, I want to BANG my head on this desk. We'd had a horrible night and so I took him back in. My poor Matthew has had a fever on and off since Sunday (it was up again today after being gone yesterday), pink eye -diagnosed Monday pm and now Bronchitis -diagnosed today. I feel like I'm DROWNING in all the possible WHAT IFS come to life! (Well. we've been to the ER, well care clinic, and the pediatrician. ![]() Take that "normal routine" and JAM IT DOWN THE TOILET. and all systems are running smoothly, I'm nervous anyhow for the what-ifs. I have become so nervous at night when I take it out for the evening. Since getting my hearing aid over a year ago. I wake up and see intervals of half hours on my clock, listening in case someone may need something and I might not have heard it. I hear the door knob turn as Matthew opens it in the morning to leave the room (my door is of course open already). I hear every creaking noise this house makes. He can tell me who was tossing around in the night and I didn't know anyone budged. He sleeps very lightly while I sleep oh so soundly. I usually sleep with the bathroom light on in the hallway and the bedside touch lamp on low-things we don't normally leave on when my other half is nestled under the covers with me. I can go to bed at 10 and still be staring at the clock well past midnight begging to turn off the stress, wondering, anxiousness, fear, what-if-ings so that I can MAYBE sleep before someone wakes up needing something with the normal requests from Matthew: Is it morning yet? from Mark: I'm thirsty or I can't find my bok (bah-ck = blanket) or from Micah crying to eat. It takes sometimes HOURS for my brain to turn off. ![]() When Jamie is gone on a normal trip with normal functioning routine stuff going on at home, I barely sleep. I feel like Tom Hanks in that movie- only without the losing my wife part thankfully.
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